100 things in 2020.

How I like to reflect and plan over the new years period.

Happy new year folks. It’s the end of 2020, something I know a lot of you have been looking forward to. I used to find the new year period quite difficult. Like a lot of people, I felt under pressure to make new year’s eve a big event where I’d celebrate everything I’d achieved over the preceding year, and toast in all the exciting things that would happen throughout the year to come. Ultimately, I’d find the whole thing both underwhelming and overwhelming at the same time. I’d feel like I hadn’t achieved ‘enough’, I’d compare myself to others and find myself lacking, and I had no idea how to make my next year ‘better’.  

Now, I don’t put any pressure on new year as a single night and I use the whole period as a time of reflection and forethought. Hopefully that doesn’t sound too pretentious or airy fairy! As part of that process, I write a list. Basically, I love writing lists, I love having things to tick off and I love having something to look back on. Lists help me to keep my blinkers on to what I’m doing, what I want and what I have achieved. It’s not fool proof and of course I still find myself making unhelpful comparisons, but it goes some way to helping me keep focus.

For the past 2 years I’ve written a list of 100 things that I want to do over the new year. I originally got the idea from Countryfile magazine (I think) where they suggested a list of 100 nature focused things to do over the coming year. I decided I wanted to make my own broader list. In the first year (2019) I only managed to do 20 out of my 100 things and last year (2020) I managed to do 62 of them. I start compiling it around the beginning of December and I really enjoy mulling over the kind of things I would like to do or perhaps achieve over the coming year. I wouldn’t call it a bucket list and it’s certainly not a list of things I HAVE to do or SHOULD do, it’s more a tool to help me focus throughout the year on what’s important to me. What’s important to me could be as simple as dedicating some time to idly cloud-watch or as complex as figuring out which types of pollen are in my honey (I didn’t manage that one)! Just from these two years I’m learning that I almost always fail to reach fitness goals and yet I’m still moved to create them, I think I have more money than I do and I think I have more ‘free’ time than I actually have!

I would definitely encourage you to have a think on your own list and if you can’t manage to think of 100 things just make a shorter list. As a guide I’ve provided my 2020 list with a few comments and photos. The first 62 things are those that I managed to achieve and the 48 things that follow are those that I didn’t.

This year I had to make some changes because, well…the pandemic! A few months in I realised many of the goals would be impossible or irresponsible to aim for, so I made some new and more home and Aberdeenshire based goals, plans and aims. The original things are still shown below but crossed out, with the new 2020 friendly goal listed beside it.

  1. Visit 10 5 Aberdeenshire castles. (Banff castle, Crathes castle, Knock castle, Findlater castle, Abergeldie castle, Abergain castle. Also, Kinord castle and the Peel of Lumphanan but I wasn’t sure if they counted!)

2. Read 12 Books. (1. The Guest Cat by Takashi Hiraide, 2. The Last Wish by Andrzej Sapkowski, 3. The Outrun: A Memoir by Amy Liptrot, 4. Better Recovery From Viral Illness by Darrel O. Ho-Yen, 5. Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine by Gail Honeymoon, 6. The History of Bees by Maja Lunde, 7. Swimming to Antarctica: Tales of a Lon-Distance Swimmer by Lynne Cox, 8. The Five: The Lives of Jack the Ripper’s Women by Hallie Rubenhold, 9. The Hormone Diaries: The Bloody Truth About Our Periods by Hannah Witton, 10. She Speaks: The Power of Women’s Voices by Yvette Cooper, 11. Louis Pasteur book, 12. Untamed by Glennon Doyle.)

3. Keep up to date with bee research.

4. Write monthly blog posts.

5. Climb a mountain. (Carn na Leitire in Abriachan.)

6. Take my Holiday.

7. Visit Ramsey. Do some natural dyeing.

8. Dye hair. (August: pink balayage, December: blonde balayage.)

9. Open a new savings account.

10. Visit Muir of Dinnet – Burn o Vat. (With Yvonne from Tarland beekeepers in January.)

11. Climb Bennachie (12/9/20).

12. Go on a boat trip. Finger or hand crochet something. (Blanket).

13. Get a facial. Research family history.

14. Visit Banff and Macduff.

15. Visit the Black Isle.

16. Make margaritas.

17. Get some sea monkeys.

18. See a red squirrel.

19. Raise a kombucha SCOBY.

20. Find 5 geocaches (orginally 10). (Mostly around Nairn.)

21. Go to the Isle of Skye.

22. Visit St. Machar cathedral. (Even went for a tour around the conservation work.)

23. Grow an avocado plant.

24. Sew something.

25. Paint something.

26 .Book Chernobyl trip. Make a macrame wall hanging.

27. Write a paper – publishing it doesn’t matter. (Completing my second year PhD assignment which counted in my eyes!)

28. Go to the Den and the Glen. Carve a turnip/pumpkin.

29. Complete a cross stitch.

30. Needle felt something.

31. Bake a cake.

32. Lie on a beach. (Hmm, I mean I did lie down on a beach BUT it was very cold and I had a lot of layers on. Not quite what I had in mind!)

33. Go on an Aberdeen tour. Climb Scolty hill.

34. Visit St. Andrews. Crochet something.

35. Learn more about Aberdeen’s history.

36. Make a Christmas wreath.

37. Visit a seabird colony. Fill your flat with plants. (I guess ‘fill’ is open to interpretation but I did by A LOT of plants this year!)

38. Monitor health better. (This one is also very open to interpretation but I feel like I did this.)

39. Stop and smell the roses.

40. Work a 9 – 5 (as opposed to overwork.)

41. Stand up for yourself. (I’m still working on this but I stood up for myself more I think.)

42. Celebrate your achievements.

43. Get another piercing.

44. Give a talk.

45. See an otter.

46. Learn more about politics. (I kept very up to date for a while and it made me really, really anxious!)

47. Do a jigsaw.

48. Have a day with an average resting heart rate below 50 (I have quite a low heart rate anyway! I think the lowest average HR for a day this year was 48).

49. Stroke a cat.

50. Complete a yoga challenge.

51. Drive a car.

52. Complete a 365 picture challenge.

53.Go to the theatre.

54. Go for a fancy afternoon tea.

55. Have a decent Sunday roast.

56. Go to a Highland show. ID 10 flowers.

57. Write a letter with a fountain pen.

58. Do some origami.

59. Buy a ring and wear it. (I really don’t like my hands so this is more of a challenge than it sounds.)

60. Go camping. (With parents in a campervan – it counts!)

61. Skim stones.

62. Watch a sunset.

The following 48 things I didn’t manage to do!

63. Keep up to date with M.E. research. (I started to do this, but it was really depressing so I stopped.)

64. Wear high heels…just once.

65. See whales or dolphins or porpii!

66. Go to a spa. Make a rope knot mat.

67. Get nails done.

68. Get a massage. Gamble 1ps and 2ps at an arcade.

69. Visit Loch Muick.

70. Visit Abroath.

71. Find out what pollen’s in my honey.

72. Swim in the sea.

73. Make mead.

74. See grandad. ID 5 spiders to get back into it. (Only did one!)

75. Get back into yoga.

76. Go on a ghost tour. Walk the Belties route in Tarland. (We went but did the wrong walk!)

77. Learn some Gaelic.

78. See a contemporary dance. Make another Winogradsky column.

79. Get to know Aberdeenshire whiskies.

80. Visit Forsinard.

81. Make a terrarium. (I tried to make a bog biome but nothing thrived, everything struggled so I scrapped it and now I’m turning it into a fish tank.)

82. Go to a conference. Nail forearm stands.

83. Climb Arthur’s seat. Whittle something.

84. Go in a hot tub.

85. ID ‘some’ mosses.

86. Nail crow pose.

87. Re-learn sailing knots.

88. Dancer without an aide.

89. Run somewhere – any distance.

90. Have a bonfire.

91. Meditate ‘regularly’. (I meditated more than last year but definitely not ‘regularly’.)

92. Cook more. (I can’t remember how much I cooked the year before but I definitely didn’t cook as much as I intended!)

93. Dance often. (Again, I danced more than previously but I wouldn’t say it was ‘often’.)

94. Eat less meat and dairy. (Yeaaaah, no.)

95. Do the splits.

96. Go to a BBQ or have a BBQ.

97. Bathe/paddle/swim in fresh water.

98. Reach level 1000 in game.

99. Go to the Shetlands. Make a sourdough starter.

100. Make a monkey’s fist doorstop.

So, there you go. My 2020 ‘100 things’ list. If you make your own I’d love to know the kind of things you put on it and if by the end of 2021 you’ve found it helpful.

Happy new years and here’s to 2021!

A Guide to Thriving Throughout Winter.

I love winter! If you know me, or you’ve read any of my blogs before, then you’re probably already aware that I struggle in summer but truly enjoy winter. Most of the people I know have that flipped around and are summer lovers, winter sceptics! So, as my planned blog for December is taking longer than I expected I thought why not push that back and write about why I thrive in winter, and perhaps how you can too. If you live in the North North, like the Arctic circle, you might need more than I’m suggesting here, but I think this is appropriate for the latitude I dwell on!

Firstly, I love being cosy and hunkering down and you can only really do that if it’s cold outside. I even generally keep my heating low because I’d rather wrap myself up in fleecy PJs, jumpers and my dressing gown, which is 5 sizes too big for me than feel stuffy in an over-heated apartment. If I’m in my flat, I’m wearing my dressing gown. If I’m in a zoom meeting it’s probably wrapped around my waist, if I’ve opened the door to you and I look ‘put together’ my dressing gown has been hastily whipped off just before and it goes straight back on after the door is shut. I whole heartedly suggest you get yourself a gown that you want to wear like a second skin, it is a true winter joy!

I also have multiple blankets and even crocheted a poncho-style blanket I can wear whilst I’m mooching about my apartment. When I lived in Aberystwyth, I had an attic flat by the sea, with no heating and no shower (it did have a bathtub). It was extremely cold…as in, I could see my breath indoors sometimes! I did have an electric heater but as we all know these are expensive to run and if I’m honest it only really took the edge off the cold. The size of the immersion heater meant I couldn’t fill the bath up all the way with hot water so I would sit in a warm puddle of water up to my hips and wash my hair with a jug, shivering the whole time! It’s crazy to think I pay only £50 more in Aberdeen for double the space, an extra bedroom, heating, and a bath/shower. I did love my tiny, cold, Welsh seaside flat though and still think of it very fondly! Anyway, the point of that little side-story was that blankets were one of my saviours (this was in the days before my dressing gown)! I literally wore one like a cape at all the times, which is where the idea for a poncho blanket came from…it just took a few years to come to fruition! Having so many blankets also means that I can sleep with my window open throughout most of winter and just bury myself under a nest of downy and woolly layers. I kind of remind myself of a rodent under all it’s bedding with just it’s nose sticking out for air. I love the fresh air.

On the same cosiness theme as fleecy layers and blankets are hot water bottles. I genuinely get a bit excited the first time I get to use it at the beginning of winter/end of autumn. I felted myself a hot water bottle cover during my winter stint living on the Isle of Islay, which makes it feel even more special. I used a tonne of different colours to remind me of all the rainbows I saw on the island because I’d never seen so many, so regularly. It’s getting a bit thin and worn now after so many years of use, but it gives me emotional warm and fuzzies as well as literally pumping out heat! It’s attached to me throughout most of winter. I tuck it into the waistband of my dressing gown or under my arm whilst I wander about my flat and it sits under my feet whilst I’m working from home. It’s even left the house with me a couple of times! I used to tuck it under my jumper whilst I sat on the quadbike mowing the reeds on Islay and I’ve taken it to work with me at the university on the weekend. (They shut the heating off on the weekend in winter and it gets a bit chilly in the office). Anyway, get a hot water bottle. You will not regret it!

As well as warm layers, I also love a bit of warm light, like fairy lights and lamps. I light candles infinitely more in the colder, darker months and as a result my flat always smells awesome. For me, candles really make a difference and they don’t have to be expensive. They make ‘normal’ things like taking a bath and reading a book more special too. Candles are great for the evenings but something that has made a REAL difference to me, especially in the morning, is having a sunrise/sunset alarm clock. I struggle to get out of bed at the best of times, but I REALLY struggle to get up when it’s dark outside. Mid-winter in Aberdeen the sun rises at 0845 and sets at 1530 so unless I’m having an ultimate lie in, it’s dark when I get up throughout winter. Having an artificial sunrise on a dark morning has been life changing! I’m still grumpy and I still don’t like crawling out of my blanket nest, but I’m summer level grumpy not tickling a sleeping dragon level grumpy (if you get the HP reference there, I salute you!). There are lots of different makes and models out there and I couldn’t recommend getting one more.

Talking of light – Vitamin D. Our bodies synthesise vitamin D when the sunlight hits our skin throughout the summer months. (We can also get it from eating things like oily fish, meat, cheese and mushrooms). In the UK we can’t synthesise vitamin D in the winter because there isn’t enough UVB radiation in sunlight. So, no matter how many walks you go at midday between October and March you’re not going to be getting any vitamin D out of it. Not to mention you’re probably not going to have much skin exposed in those months anyway. The idea is that we make all our vitamin D in summer and that we make enough to see us through winter. BUT the reality for many of us is that we now have inside jobs and probably don’t spend 20 mins outside in the sun between 11am and 3pm every day….so we don’t make enough vitamin D in summer to tide us over anymore. That means that many of us are low in vitamin D and this can cause things like fatigue, low mood, hair loss, muscle pains and frequent infections: Vitamin D is super important for healthy bones, teeth and muscles. Because of that it’s now advised that we supplement with about 10µg of vitamin D per day throughout those darker months. (Of course, if you have any concerns or any extra health considerations you should see your doctor before you go down to Boots). Whilst we’re talking about this, I think it’s also very important to note that folk with darker skin need to get more sun than us pale folk to make the same amount of vitamin D. So, if you have dark skin you are more likely to have low vitamin D levels throughout the whole year (especially in places like the UK). Also, if you’re a modest dresser then you may not have enough exposed skin to be making enough vitamin D even in summer. Something to think about. It’s always hard to tell if something like a supplement makes a difference or not, but I feel like it works for me!

Despite the fact you’re not getting any vitamin D out of it I still think it’s crazy important to get out and about throughout winter so you don’t get cabin fever. In fact, winter is my favourite time to explore lots of places. Mostly, because it’s quiet but also because I’m a huge fan of open, desolate and bleak landscapes! I think they have a huge amount of atmosphere. I mentioned in one of my other blogs about how I went to Dunnottar castle in Stonehaven in both winter and summer and how different those two experiences were, but the same thing can be said for most places. There’s so much beauty in a winter landscape but, I think, in general, maybe you have to look a little harder to see it. More often than not when I’m out and about with someone in winter I hear them say at some point…”I bet this is lovely in summer”. I’ve had to train myself to reply with something like “hmm, yeah” or “I bet” but really, inside, I’m shouting “IT’S LOVELY RIGHT NOW”. I’ve never heard someone in summer say, “I bet this looks lovely in winter”. Maybe I should start. I get it though, I really do. Summer is warm and colourful and more obviously full of life…it’s just a huge bugbear of mine!

Something that might help you appreciate being out and about in winter is a flask…or three. I have a tea/coffee flask, a soup flask and a whisky flask and each one is loved and appreciated throughout the cooler months. My consumption of hot drinks in the house skyrockets too and my alcohol choices go from summery chilled white wines and margaritas to brandy macs, whiskies and espresso martinis. I like drinking, and warming yourself up or killing off the cold ‘germs’ lingering in your throat is a great excuse! (Don’t tell me if there’s any science debunking that cold ‘germ’ thing. I don’t want to know)!

Anyway, because I still try to get out and about as much as I can my skin definitely takes a hit, so, I take the opportunity in winter to pamper myself. By pamper I just mean I up my skincare in general; more baths, more exfoliating, more face masks, more moisturising…you get the idea…just ‘more’! I know a lot of us are on a budget, but this really doesn’t have to cost much, and it so makes a difference. Alongside this type of self-care I think I naturally allow myself to relax with less guilt in winter too. I do more yoga, crafts and reading (which constitutes relaxing for me). Maybe the winter hibernation vibes let introverts like me spend more time getting on with introvert things!

Talking of introvert things, I think winter, which of course marks both the end of the current year and the beginning of the next, is a great time to reflect on what has happened and ruminate over what could be. This is something I REALLY enjoy doing. Now, I’m not talking about 5-year career plans (eurgh) or weight goals or anything like that, but something much softer. I’m actually going to write another blog at the beginning of the year about my ‘100 things to do in a year’ list and the cards I use to help me focus on what’s important to me. As this blog is already 2000 words long I won’t say any more about that ‘softer’ type of planning here or now…but look out for it if you’re interested in that. 

So these are just some of the things I love about winter and some of the things that help make it such a pleasant time, for me. Of course, I also love Christmas and a sprinkling of snow and the smell of cold air and blue skied frosty days, but that all seemed too obvious. I can’t force you to like this season but hopefully if you’re a winter sceptic this has given you something to think about!

I Watched ‘All’ the Netflix Christmas Movies, so You Don’t Have To.

So, when I say ‘all’ of them…I didn’t quite make it. My festive eyes were bigger than my belly and I overstretched myself! It’s like when I moved to Aberdeen and decided that I’d visit all the castles in Aberdeenshire only to find that there are well over 200 of them! I thought there’d be about 30 Christmas movies, but the more I watched the more that were suggested to me. It was overwhelming. Most of them were kid’s movies too and some of them can be real gems, most of them are not!

I don’t even want to admit how short an amount of time I watched these in and how many of these I watched in a day but it probably says something that I pretty much ended with Krampus, a Christmas horror movie!

Anyway, I’ve rated them most into 4 groups; the best with a hands up emoji, then those with an okay sign, then a thumbs up…then everything else. I should probably mention in advance that I’m no film critic! I’m easily pleased and I love the unpredictable feminist masterpieces that are hallmark movies! So take my opinions with a handful (not just a pinch) of salt.

The Best!

  • Dash and Lily. (This series is an absolute treat.)
  • Princess Switch. (I LOVE these movies!!)
  • Princess Switch: Switched Again.
  • The Christmas Chronicles. (Delightful.)
  • The Christmas Chronicles 2.
  • Arthur Christmas.
  • Christmas Wedding Planner. (I especially love the peak unrealistic ending!)
  • The Knight Before Christmas.
  • Operation Christmas Drop. (A new one…and loosely based on something real).
  • A Bad Mom’s Christmas.
  • I’ll be Home for Christmas.
  • Klaus. (Oh my goodness I loved this film!)
  • Angela’s Christmas. (CUTE!)
  • Over Christmas. (What a surprise? A nice German series – well dubbed so you don’t have to read!)
  • A California Christmas.

The Great.

  • Nailed it – Christmas Specials.
  • A Christmas Prince. (These are almost top tier, but not quite.)
  • A Christmas Prince: The Royal Wedding.
  • A Christmas Prince: The Royal Baby.
  • Christmas With the Coopers.
  • Nativity.
  • Let it Snow.
  • Christmas Inheritance.
  • My Christmas Inn.
  • Angela’s Christmas Wish.
  • Pottersville.
  • Christmas Break-In.
  • 48 Christmas Wishes.
  • Holiday Calendar.
  • Alien Xmas. (Also a good surprise considering I am not the person meant to be watching this!)
  • Krampus. (A great palate cleanser!)

The Okay (and Largely Forgettable).

  • Holiday Makeover with Mr Christmas. (You’ll need to be feeling very festive.)
  • A Cinderella Story. (Pleasant.)
  • A Wish for Christmas.
  • Nativity 2.
  • Nativity 3.
  • Christmas Made to Order.
  • Christmas Wonderland.
  • Holiday Rush.
  • A Perfect Christmas List.
  • Jingle Jangle: A Christmas Journey.
  • Grinch. (The cartoon – the one with Jim Carey would rate higher than this but it’s not on Netflix.)
  • Santa Claws. (I’m not really the target demographic for this but it could have been worse!)
  • Santa in Training.
  • Free Reign. The 12 Neighs of Christmas. (Maybe I was losing my mind at this point because, actually, this wasn’t so bad!)

The Ugly.

  • Merry Happy Whatever. (I really struggled to get through this. The sheer amount of canned laughter was appalling. Nothing funny about it.)
  • Christmas Land (Oof.)
  • Christmas With the Kranks.
  • Santa Girl. (Okay, this is really bad…but almost so bad it’s good.)
  • Christmas With a View.
  • Puppy Star Christmas. (OH MY GOD, WHAT DID I DO? This was one of THE worst things I’ve ever played on my TV. Don’t do this to yourself.)

There are plenty that I missed, and Netflix are still bringing out/adding in new films over the season, so we’re all spoiled for choice. I’d love to hear what your favourite Christmas movies are.